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Catalyst for Change

It’s amazing how life&love works as trying to help you accept yourself more, love yourself more and believe in yourself more, and come back again and again powerful and succeeding if you face life and what is in front of you ‘eye to eye’ and ‘heart to heart’.

Going personally through a heart empowering after being deeply cutting and broken after broken situation for quite some time, and looking back at last few months how situations and insights were unfolding and revealing more and more clear what was and is inside, behind, above – you know those ‘pink elephants in the room’ or the scenes from The Emperor’s new clothes – it’s really amazing how it all works out.

I can’t say that I’m not crying or struggling on occasions because of it, and I’m some days not all shinny and smiley and happy. I’m not resentful or vindictive, but I can be frustrated, disappointed or sad some days. And yet I’m deeply grateful for all of it. It helps me acknowledge, heal, learn and create exactly what I need and want to.

And you know what, I’m realizing there are usually more ‘pink elephants’,  not just one, ‘working together’. I guess that’s what distracts me and I assume others as well. I guess this is why I probably can take so much bullshit and allow that maybe is something else, that I just don’t know, that they need more time, that they just don’t know or can’t… and keep believing that the words we use mean the same. You know like love, loving, appreciation, compassion, friends, support, collaboration etc. They do, and yet some things are exactly as they are, for me to finally see them as they are, and to learn what I need to learn from. And they keep staying there as long as they need to for me to see and learn. And it might hurt, until it hurts so much that I feel something else. I feel my true self, my inner strength, my power, my freedom, and I create a shift and heal and learn and keep going forward with an open heart.

I’m realizing and acknowledging myself being a catalyst for a change in these kind of situations for something much bigger than me, not being aware of it all at that time. Many memories of these kind of experiences are coming at the front realizing this. It’s amazing how much is in the invisible (borrowing here Tina Quinn’s analogy from her book Invisible things), and what is being projected in the visible, and what is and can be taken for granted, misinterpreted and misunderstood. So much fear and pain and loss, instead of love, abundance and the beauty of life and living.

I’m grateful for sharing and learning on my life’s journey from different people, and different interpretations and expressions of life and love, and with all ‘those pink elephants’ among and around us.

It’s funny, I really love pink, and I love elephants. They represent love and friendship. They actually help me see what’s not love, and choosing love and truth over fear. I do it owning my life and taking responsibility. I do it because I deserve love and truth. If I can be an example with this for anyone else, I’m grateful.

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